urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fallingxapartx fallingxapartx fallingxapartx 2006-05-23T18:26:04Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fallingxapartx:607 2006-05-23T18:08:12Z 2006-05-23T18:26:04Z Alanis Morissette-Mary Jane So I've been thinking a lot lately, which really isn't ever a good thing....I seem to be going in a direction I'm not so fond of. I hardly see Aaron anymore, which hurts, as we live together. When I do see him half the time I feel like I'm dead. <br /><br />Dead...has so many meanings to me I guess. Dead inside, numb, empty. I suppose in a way I'm preparing myself for what I know is to come. A part of me wishes that I could just stop. Just give up.<br /><br /><em>Just give up, Denyss, you'll never get what you want. Not in this world.<br /><br /></em>And the saddest part is I'm starting to believe it's true. Perhaps I should just find my old master, or some new master and hand myself over now. I wouldnt ever forget Aaron, I think that there is something there for me though, that isn't there for him. Yes, we're eager to please each other...But that doesn't mean shit in this world, not anymore. <br /><br />Then again, love doesn't mean anything in this world either, does it? So, honestly, tell me. What exactly is the point?<br /><br />Why so silent, journal? Haven't you got an answer? Funny, I haven't got the answer either. I wish that I did. Perhaps I do though. <br /><br /><em>Just slit your wrists Denyss. Hang yourself. Take that gun over there, put it in your mouth. Go to the vampires. <br /><br /></em>They all mean the same thing.<br /><br />Don't tempt me.<br /><br /><font size="1"><em>What's the matter, Mary Jane?<br />Had a hard day?<br />So place the don't disturb sign on the door.<br />You lost your place in line again, what a pity.<br />You never seem to wanna dance anymore.<br /><br />It's&nbsp; a long way down.<br />On this rollercoaster.<br />The last chance streetcar went off the track.<br />And you're on it.<br /><br />I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane,<br />What's the point of trying to dream anymore?<br />I hear you're losing weight again, Mary Jane.<br />Did you ever wonder who you're losing it for?<br /><br />Well it's full speed baby.<br />In the wrong direction.<br />There's a few more bruises.<br />If that's the way you insist on heading.</em></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fallingxapartx:338 2006-05-03T05:16:41Z 2006-05-03T05:16:41Z A Breath Of Sunshine-Scary Kids Scaring Kids So...I really don't know what to say in here.<br />My name is Denyss McKnight, (pronounced Dennis) I'm seventeen and I'm from Canada.<br />I was previously owned but ran away...Um I just saw my best friend again today...<br />Aaron Gilmore. The prettiest face I've ever seen.<br />I missed him.<br />I live by any means neccesary. If you want to get to know me come find me.